it's been a long time since i've touched my camera. it's growing molds by now.

my art. not as watch-worthy as i hoped. but that's ok. there's always room for improvement, no?

i really wish i get my passion back.

photographer's block, i think is what it's called.

a~~~~~~~


i just wanna shoot something. and make it beautiful.


help.

im in a happy new page of life right now, everything's still the same, people still treat me the same, but I have changed. i've learned not to care so much and just let it go. im proud of myself for that.

anyway.

yahooooo! i got my toooot now, im good. *wink *wink gem!

i think i suck at this whole photo thingy. pessimist mode on.

am i improving?? i dunno. i guess?

it's frustrating to see people get better. it makes your work look awful even when it already looks ok to you.

at the same time, i'm inspired by what you can achieve by perseverin.

so, in conclusion:

i suck. but i wont quit because of it. yea?

yea.

by: George and Ira Gershwin


Embrace me

My sweet embraceable you

Embrace me

My irreplaceable you

Just to look at you

My heart grows tipsy in me

You and you alone



Bring out the gypsy in me



I love all

The many charms about you

Above all

I want my arms about you

Don't be naughty baby

Come to me

Come to me do

My sweet embraceable you



I love all

The many charms about you

Above all

I want my arms about you

Don't be naughty baby

Come to me

Come to me do

My sweet embraceable you..

this isn't a news flash anymore. everyone knows what happened in Sichuan.

last week monday 2:28 pm, a level 8 quake hit the area. 30,000 people are now recorded dead. but that doesnt count those who are still missing, or still buried under the pile of debris.

i was still in class when my mom called. i didnt get to answer the first call because when i came out of the room, the ringing stopped. so i had to wait for the second call, when i answered, my mom was frantic. yelling at me angrily for not picking up. she asked me if i was ok, and i told her yes, and that i was still in class. she asked if i felt the quake. i said i didnt. and she told me about Sichuan.

i remember thinking to myself, so? doesnt concern me.--even while knowing how strong level 8 is. i didnt bother to think about it. i didnt give a sngle damn.

didnt even come to me that there were other schools and other students having class that very day, didnt even stop to think if they got out alive or were buried alive or what. i was so inconsiderate. almost heartless.


and that monday was a day after mother's day.

can you blame my mother for wanting to know if her daughter was still breathing? i guess not.

now i stop to think of all the children who would grow up orphans. and all the mothers who would never see their children again.

yesterday, a week after the disaster, at the same time of the quake, the whole nation stopped to mourn for 3 minutes. i silently prayed and apologized for my actions.

my friends and i wanted to volunteer. but it is not advised for foreigners to go to Sichuan because it's still too unstable. and anything might still happen, even during rescue. instead, we were encouranged to hold fund raisers here in Guangzhou.

and we understand. we know we'd only be walking pains in the butt if we go.

i guess this was a wake up. in a way, thank You.

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i have nothing else to give you to remember me by, just this song i made in my heart, so you know that although we're apart, i wish you love.